you’d think that after everything, i would be the bigger person but to this i say nay. in the words of erik cartman- I DO WHAT I WANT!

sometimes, i feel awesome about the things that happen to me in my life. like today. i had an amazing time with holly and justin shooting on an abandoned train car. well until i couldnt feel my feet any more! i can’t wait to see the pics. after that i went to do something that needed to be done. to me, it was probably one of the most important, scary and necessary things i’ve ever had to do. I know that in the end it doesnt matter either way to the other but to me—- to me it will help me sleep better at night knowing that i got things off of my chest. My heart will always have to deal with my past and day by day it gets better. I am thankful for having someone to fill the hole now. 

I will never stop wondering about the what ifs but as far as i’m concerned i’m right where i’m suppose to be in life. 

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